Healing didn’t happen because I started doing yoga, meditating, eating better, or working with an energy healer. Healing started when I began to choose love over fear, nourishment over neglect, and forgiveness over shame.
Pain is pain is pain. Physical, emotional, spiritual. Here to wake us up. To pry open our eyes and give us the opportunity to face our fears with love and compassion. It manifests in sneaky ways. Disguising emotional pain as physical pain and vice versa. The more we avoid it, the more it will scream and kick before it pins us down, demanding our attention in very, very uncomfortable ways.
I use to think my pain would just go away on its own if I kept the distractions loud...worked over time, drank until I fell asleep, repeat.
One day though, my pain found me, turned the lights on bright, tore the covers off from over me, removed my ear plugs and eye mask, and flipped the world from which I hid behind upside down. There I found myself abruptly awoken to reality- forced to face the truths hiding behind my fears.
But these moments however long or short are opportunities to heal our lives.
I’ve had to re learn this lesson a few times over the years...To not hide, to honor my true desires, to respond to physical, emotional, and spiritual pain with love and compassion rather than rage. To slow down enough to really listen.
Our bodies are designed to heal themselves and we can change our neurochemistry without the use of chemicals. When we start to let go the weight of our limiting beliefs, fear, grief, anger, etc., we start to raise our energy frequency. When we are operating at a high frequency, our bodies are able to heal themselves in miraculous ways. Our reality radically shifts.
Satya is the second of the five yamas in yoga. It’s the Sanskrit word for truth. Practicing satya has been essential in my healing. Being truthful with myself is something I’ve struggled with most of my life. Speaking my mind, standing up for myself, projecting my voice, asking for what I needed, etc. was daunting, exhausting, petrifying. It was fear of not being seen or heard. This fear, for so long, held me back in life from fully experiencing joy.
If you’re moving through a difficult time in your life know that you are not alone. If you’re ready to lead with love, align with your highest and most authentic self, and live in joy, join me on this journey. We are our own healers, but we are in this together. Contact me for a free consultation. Skype or in person.
Notes to Self
What if I just rode this wave like a feather rides the wind? Will it carry me safely home back to myself?
What if I just let it be like all things in nature? Will letting go allow this life to flow to the rhythm of it’s authentic pace?
If I loosen my grip and let myself slip into this abyss of uncertainty will I gracefully and effortlessly Find freedom?
Stay awake With me, for me In the most peaceful moments of the night So rarely spent, for we sleep through it throughout our entire lives as if it’s insignificant Or maybe we’re just conditioned to the routine So stay awake with me, for me together in the center of stillness In a world that’s slowed down to a pace we can keep up with so quiet, we can hear the earth breathe So listen while it lasts Take a closer look at what we look away from the beauty within our darkest moments
So I close my eyes and study the kaleidoscope in my mind and I’m reminded of what beauty we find in darkness when we let go of the fear of uncertainty
Love is watching someone grow
Into their truest forms.
And to grow, we must let go
The weight of our old selves
So I’ll keep my gaze set North, and shed layers of winter coats
And follow the path that stays lit By your love.
And so I let go, and grow forward
toward the fiery warmth of your light, leading me safely
back home to myself.
Be still, Love Just ‘be Love’ If we keep moving to find, We might never be found